So this is going to sound a little like I am feeling sorry for myself and maybe I am a little. I mean I am probably about two months work away from completing my Masters degree but I can't concentrate on anything. All I can think about from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep is this MS thing. If I am not thinking about that, then odds are I am trying to figure out what Wife is up to. Not what she is doing but what she is trying to achieve. Have asked Wife point-blank if she wants out of this marriage and she responds no. What then? She's not trying to make marriage better so what does she want? Just to live in this platonic pseudo-marraige? ...a question for the woman of this world...are you willing to stay in a miserable situation simply to avoid the uncertainty of starting over?

M.S scares the hell out of me. Ever since NN (nasty neurologist) said he thought I might have MS then I have been noticing symptoms. Is this hypochondria? Paranoid placebo effect? Or simply stuff that I had been ignoring before? Incredibly annoying tingling sensation over shoulder-blade, pins and needles in hands and feet, amazing fatigue to the point that when I get up in the morning I feel like I havent slept. I've checked out the MS sites and these are not things that look good. Have to wait for diagnosis I suppose. All will become clear on the 15th. Incidentally wife will not be here for that, she flies to visit friend in city of Farfaraway on the 9th. So will be facing diagnosis alone. If I surrender to bitterness for a moment I could say that I've come this far into this mess alone so what is the big deal about facing diagnosis alone? But hey, smile...even if you have to ram a coat-hanger into your mouth.